The Blackbird

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Thoughts about last night's dream.

[For the record: This dream was on November 16th, 2020, shortly after the 2020 US Election between Biden and Trump]

Last night I dreamt I was at a voting location, and I was very anxious. Someone was in front of me voting, sitting at a table with his back to me. He was taking a long time- and I was worried- I had to vote to get Biden in at all costs. Eventually, I reached over and touch the man on his shoulder and told him we have to get Trump out. Then the man turned and looked at me- and it was Trump himself!

He was completely lost and broken and I suddenly realized that I felt great sympathy for him. I suddenly saw him as a man very much alone and confused by everything, even looking for help in my eyes. The change in me was significant. I saw that he knew he lost, but he simply did not know what to do next. There was no evil in him here, but he was completely isolated and alone. Just a lost and broken man. He seemed to have lost something far greater than the presidency, and all that stuck with me was his isolation and desolation. No one was coming to help him, especially not his supporters. They needed the thing Trump lost, not Trump himself. He had no one.

I've been working with my feelings about this all day. Not easy for me to humanize this man, I must say... to accept feeling sympathy for him. But that's what I seem to come away with. This is not about “forgiving” his actions, and I know very well the fight against what he represents is not over. But for me just these few moments showed me the possibility of a humanity in him that somehow I never experienced before. This has been very interesting and feels significant today.

Perhaps this is something we need to do for not just for him, but for all his followers to some degree. Maybe this is how I can begin to envision opening the door to the possibility of healing at a national level? I wonder. It is probably true that the significance of this feeling in the dream is personal - meaning something for me to learn from. But I do feel like sharing this with you is part of this process and part of the significance of the dream for me. .

Stay well and take care of each other. As always, I welcome any discussion.